Small beginning

I believe we have to learn several things and prepare in order to be properly ready and allowed to take on newer and cleaner challenges. I've drooped along University for 8 years underlyingly knowing I wasn't following something I had excitement for. Where there is lack of excitement, how can there be effective contribution or results ? By boring myself of going through the motions I've risen, possibly only slightly, from this slumber by taking more time to do the things I truly enjoy. For instance, I write a smallish article once a week on "La Voix Acadienne" and I get paid a nice sum of 30$ per entree. Yet, even if this is obviously not enough to put bread on the table for too long, I have cherished and joyously celebrated every cheque I received from the journal. There haven't been too many circumstances or working engagements in my life where I felt "I didn't really work", but this is one of them. Writing is a natural form of expression which I love to do. I don't have to overthink and I don't get tired of doing it. I'll generally breeze by writing different thoughts. As I bath in my unemployment insurance for a time and continue to reflect and adjust, I pray to come out of this lower pit with greater love and honesty for myself. Find more clarity in what I want to be and do, then being and doing it. Forget trying to change the world, just change yourself.